Jurong Bird Park

Its been a long long long while since my last visit to the Jurong Bird Park!! Has it been more than 10 years?? The weather was great and we were there from 8.30am - 2pm =D Caught the Birds of Prey show, Penguin feeding, Birds & Buddies show and did Lory feeding. The Lory feeding was my favourite part of the day. The colourful lories perched on my arm and drank up their feed from the clear plastic cups while we snapped pictures of them.

Wonderful stay at Fullerton Bay Hotel

A wonderfully relaxing one-nights' stay at the Fullerton Bay Hotel - a pleasant surprise planned by my Lao gong =D
Look at the view from our balcony! Free flow of Nespresso coffee - 12 different flavours to choose from and Gryphon teas. Relaxing rain shower, Molten Brown shower gels and shampoo, thick comfy bathrobes and a breakfast complete with eggs benedict, no wonder I am having withdrawal symptoms!!! We had dinner nearby at Lau Pa Sat - satay and bbq stingray and sugarcane juice. Walked off the dinner at Marina Bay Sands and bought my very 1st Coach bag =)

Life in Equilibrium

Was reflecting on the things I needed to let go of before the year ends whilst in the shower (I am one of those who ponder about stuff while showering =p)

Well the most obvious one is my ability to have children...been feeling very poorly about this "right" (dun think God made this a right, humans call it a right as majority of the population has it...making themselves miserable when they realise they dun have it) being held from me for so long.

Life is in equilibrium, just not mine alone i guess but collectively. I have been focusing only on my side of the equation and how unfair things seem (such as when I found out that a close friend is pregnant when she did not intend to have children and the pregnancy was easy for her, as she only discovered her pregnancy 5 months into term and sailed right thru it discovering the sex of her baby on her very first visit to the gynae). If I had only considered that the other side of the equation was her joy and that by knowing and made aware of how hard I have tried to have one of my own will make her treasure what she has all the more. That kinda balanced things out didn't it.

Life is cruel as we are made aware of things that we don't wish to know or rather given information that do us no good (like maybe I only have one kidney from a rudimentary horn or my mum knowing that her daughter has to go through IVF...). But it is also the sharing of such information that makes others realise how fortunate they are and encourage them to do what they can to preserve/maintain what they have.

Maybe we are not blind, not that greedy and discontented =) just that we see the 2 different sides to the equation at starkly different times of our lives dats all. After all that being said, why do I still feel so bad inside?!

Merry Christmas to all!!

TCM Visits to Ban Choon Chan

We have decided to try out this TCM place called Ban Choon Chan and literally had to 三顾茅庐, make 3 visits to this place before finally getting to see the doctor. They were closed on my first 2 visits although it was not a stated rest day.

Here's the address: Blk 81 #01-636 Marine Parade Central Singapore 440081 Tel: 6344 6718 Business hours: Mon, Wed, Thu, Fri, Sat 8.30am - 3pm, Sun 8.30am - 12pm Closed on Tuesdays and public holidays.

Our 1st visit was on a Saturday and we waited for 5 hours from 9am till 2pm before collecting the medicine and stepping out of the place!! The queue system was by rows of chairs and everybody stood up and moved when the next patient steps out. Nope, no queue number to take and registration and stuff =) Really quite cute and primitive (but it works!)...the images just popped back in your head kekeke. 2nd time round we went on a weekday, Thursday and arrived at 8am to be first in the queue and left at around 9.15am. Phew!

These are the herbs we had to brew at home:-

Hope we are one step closer to becoming a mum & dad!!

A song to bring me forth to the New Year!!

Totally in love with this song from Carrie Underwood =) There's a place for us

Here's the reason why:-

There's a place out there for us,


More than just a prayer or anything you’ve ever dreamed of.


So when you feel like giving up cause you don't fit in down here,


Fear is crashing in, close your eyes and take my hand.


We can be the kings and queens of anything if we believe.


It's written in the stars that shine above,


A world where you and I belong, where faith and love will keep us strong,


Exactly who we are is just enough


There's a place for us,

There's a place for us.


Where the water meets the sky,


Where your heart is free and hope comes back to life,


When these broken hands are whole again,


We will find what we've been waiting for,




We were made for so much more


We can be the kings and queens of anything if we believe.


It's written in the stars that shine above,


A world where you and I belong, where faith and love will keep us strong,


Exactly who we are is just enough,


There's a place for us, there’s a place for us

So hold on, hold on,


There's a place for us


We can be the kings and queens of anything if we believe.


It's written in the stars that shine above,


A world where you and I belong, where faith and love will keep us strong,


Exactly who we are is just enough, yeah, exactly who we are is just enough,


There's a place for us.

More South Korea BSM Pics

Realised i didn't do enough 'coverage' on my BSM trip. Looking back at the pics taken, we really enjoyed ourselves and would do it all over again =D Glad the costs came up to be really reasonable, phew!

My First KK IVF

I am hoping that documenting what i did these few months might give me some sort of closure and that I can start picking up the pieces and move on...

I had a shorter IVF/ICSI Stimulation process using the GNRH Antagonist as I was allergic to Lucrin on my earlier try. The process was cruel to me, building up my hopes bit by bit with each KK visit, with each injection, with each scan and blood test, letting me experience the symptoms of pregnancy only to take it all away in an instant.

D1 (29 Sep 10) : Start of Menses

D2 (30 Sep 10) : Visit to KK IVF, Ultrasound scan, start on daily Puregon injections (100 units)

The 5 Stages of Grief

Denial and Isolation: At first, we tend to deny the loss has taken place, and may withdraw from our usual social contacts. This stage may last a few moments, or longer.

Anger: The grieving person may then be furious at the person who inflicted the hurt (even if she's dead), or at the world, for letting it happen. He may be angry with himself for letting the event take place, even if, realistically, nothing could have stopped it.

Bargaining: Now the grieving person may make bargains with God, asking, "If I do this, will you take away the loss?"

Depression: The person feels numb, although anger and sadness may remain underneath.

Acceptance: This is when the anger, sadness and mourning have tapered off. The person simply accepts the reality of the loss.

My share of Allergies

The past few days were terrible...how i have suffered.
4 lucrin jabs later i was down with
- Neck rash and swelling
- Facial swelling
- Eye twitching
- Rash on limbs
- Vomiting
- Headache
2 trips to KKH 24-hour clinic and these lot of medication
- Zyrtec
- Dermasone cream
- Chlorpheniramine
- Betasone cream
- 1 steriod jab
- Calamine lotion
and I am still not well, rashes are still coming out of nowhere...evenings are the hardest
I have to stop my daily Lucrin jabs which was my greatest fear

Blogshop Fancies

Some exciting blogshops for clothes and bags that i found!
Pieces of Summer: http://piecesofsummer.livejournal.com/

The Stage Walk: http://www.thegorgeouslook.com

Princesses: http://princessess.livejournal.com/
Yventually: http://yventually.livejournal.com

Bought stuff from the first two blogshops and was one satisfied customer!

BSM South Korea

=D Ah I am an official shopaholic...well who's to blame? The nice fashion sense the South Koreans have made me go gaga...alas most $$ had been spent...leaving me gasping for more

If I was to bring my family to South Korea, here's how i would plan it:-

Day 1: SIN-ICN Arriving in Seoul in the morning, breakfast on the plane, lunch of Korean Ginseng Chicken soup in Myeong Dong. Check in at Ibis Myeong Dong. Bring mum to Namdaemun for shopping. Shopping at Migliore for me!

Day 2: Porridge Breakfast (abalone anyone?) and then off to Lotte World, followed by nice Korean BBQ dinner

Day 3: Off to Jeju Island via a quick domestic flight (40mins). Check-in at Ocean Suites. Self-drive or rent a taxi for the day - Mysterious road, Teddy Bear Museum. Nice BBQ seafood dinner and abalone porridge

Day 4-5: More Jeju - and perhaps a golfing session for Mum & Dad

Go shopping for nice local produce at E-Mart near to Hotel for Yuzu tea, Kimchi etc (closes at 11pm)

Maybe Baby?

Started SO-IUI at the KK Hospital and its a fantastic training of patience for me...everything thing happens for a reason and i am quite sure the reason here is to convert me from a restless impatient woman in her 30s to a calm and patient person er hm still in her 30s....To make me a stronger and braver person so that i can become a better mum or person.

Learned to inject myself with Puregon to stimulate the follicles and egg production. It's rather easy and not painful, just a quick jab but again its the act of having to inject yourself daily that is painful emotionally and the expectations formed with each jab i make. We shall see...

Not so good...

Chanced upon a blog with someone with a similar condition...
Unicornuate uterus is a birth defect where either only one side of the uterus forms, or both sides form but one side is extremely stunted and not connected to a fallopian tube. The stunted side forms a small pocket and often does not have an outlet to the cervix. This small pocket is called a rudimentary horn...
I was scheduled for an HSG (hysterosalpingogram) - the test would involve a doctor inserting a catheter into my uterus and injecting dye while following the process on an x-ray machine...confirmed that only the left side of my uterus is ok which means i cannot have twins as the womb is too small...
More terrifying news...I am scheduled the following week for an ultrasound to confirm that I had two kidneys as women with this disorder may only have one kidney.
How much can i take? Do i have what it takes to persevere to the end? Or is it just too hard?